Girl's Trip - LA to San Jose, CA

A sweet little girl’s trip is just what I needed during such a turbulent time. Vanessa, Claudia, and I drove up to San Jose to shoot a wedding, and made a few cute little stops along the way for some adventures and photoshoots :)

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Wildflowers, Butterflies, + March 2019 iPhone in Review

March started out rough just like any other busy month— lots of overtime at the day job and lots of photoshoots trying to save up as much money as possible to be able to have more mobility. It sucks having to be an adult with responsibilities, it sucks not having mommy and daddy to hand out payments for even the essentials or student loans, but that’s the life I’ve known for half my life already. And sadly I guess it wasn’t a life my now-ex really understood the gravity of. Toward the end of the month, my whole life turned upside down. Now as I’m writing this, the end of March and exactly one year since the breakup that shattered my life, my heart and soul, my feelings of self worth and confidence, and anything else you could dream up, it’s STILL hard to deal with. I’m nowhere near the level of pain I endured throughout all of 2019, but I’m not out of the woods just yet. These are just a few iPhone or other shots that I was able to muster together for the March hodgepodge and iPhone in review. Bless that little love note from Mom—I kept that thing up on the door for a month until it lost its sticky and fell off. Every day that passes I take as many baby steps as I can. Mourning is a wild ride, my friends.

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Bearfriends (RIP) Dream a Little Dream Cover

Once upon a time, I had a sweet little band with someone I thought I’d spend my whole life with. It was what it was, and this is what it is; still, I’m proud of the art I and we all made together. Like the other Bearfriends vids, I’m hoping to one day look back at all of these and smile. I took one for the team on this one for sure, I was really sick when we filmed this, having a rough time with the meds I was on, nobody told me there was a dress code (luckily sweet little Hannah brought another dress), and I picked the take where the collective sounded the best, even if I sounded better on other takes… It’s been nice watching Hannah and Nick continue to create and grow; it’s still anxiety-inducing anytime my ex makes any sort of appearance, anywhere, including every nightmare, but I’m here waiting patiently for a day when he makes me feel nothing at all. Patience, they say, “time heals all wounds”—— xo, V

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Once upon a time, I had a beautiful little band called Bearfriends going on with my then-soulmate. We started out as just us two for about 5 years or so, and...